Response after her response: temp:
Greetings and Salutations! OH MEIN GOTT pain must be worthy of some ibuprofen! LOL. HEAT and PRESSURE. I found a page of emoticons, nothing spcl. Reading a lot. Putting off writing (my book). I'm researching new medical lead on my own back cond. Damned doctors sure won't. I drew my self-portrait, er, sorta. It's me from behind! Nude with some structure showing, diagrams on it about pain. I sure gave myself some hips, lol. It turned out GREAT! :) Got my printer ink today! Yay! :>
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
RE: Looking Around
[quote="HellZenith"][quote="Qwiette"]Hey, babes, whattup? Hi! Must be about school-time. Your last year, wow. Left short note for you in Subeta. Hope to hear something from you soon. I'm not trying to stalk you or anything creepy like that! Just lookin' around. Where's my girl? Is she alright? Typical paranoid stuff, yeah. Ok, gotta go do some laundry for the first time in over, wow, THREE months!! I was already overdue for some laundry when I was injured on June 10. :ninja:[/quote]
yeah school tomorrow. not very excited. new year, same s**t...ya know? Yeah ive been too lazy to reply lol XD welcome to gaia.[/quote]
(Check out your inbox at Subeta)
Hey, glad you let me know you were still alive, lol. I really didn't want you to think I was totally freaking out, not yet. I knew you'd reply when you could. I think boredom is a good reason for about anything. I'm a Pro Crastinater. Crastination is good, LOL.
I don't know why I got so worried. Sometimes having you "there" instead of "here" is hard. But of course my there is your here and so on. Anj reminded me about school time. I knew she was right. It's part of my illnesses, and even though I might understand or strongly suspect that these are the forces involved, I still feel the same inside, probably makes no sense. LOL. I've been under considerable stress, and that's when the Gremlins come to visit.
I'm trying to get $30,000 in student loans forgiven and face holy hell if I can't, then there is a chance that I may lose my income entirely in the future because of a stupid program I got on years ago.
I'll feel much better soon. Even though I don't have money, I'm thinking of calling lawyers to see what they might say. My Psychiatrist is totally on my side, so that will help bundles. She is putting me back on an old medicine that I think will help me. If I can ever work again, I want to have my own restaurant, The Jaspers. I told you that once but it's been awhile. I think about it a lot.
So, we're cool, so glad you stopped by. My cats are all sweet and healthy. The weather here has been very nice, probably still hot there?
Tiffany Jamb, LOL!
yeah school tomorrow. not very excited. new year, same s**t...ya know? Yeah ive been too lazy to reply lol XD welcome to gaia.[/quote]
(Check out your inbox at Subeta)
Hey, glad you let me know you were still alive, lol. I really didn't want you to think I was totally freaking out, not yet. I knew you'd reply when you could. I think boredom is a good reason for about anything. I'm a Pro Crastinater. Crastination is good, LOL.
I don't know why I got so worried. Sometimes having you "there" instead of "here" is hard. But of course my there is your here and so on. Anj reminded me about school time. I knew she was right. It's part of my illnesses, and even though I might understand or strongly suspect that these are the forces involved, I still feel the same inside, probably makes no sense. LOL. I've been under considerable stress, and that's when the Gremlins come to visit.
I'm trying to get $30,000 in student loans forgiven and face holy hell if I can't, then there is a chance that I may lose my income entirely in the future because of a stupid program I got on years ago.
I'll feel much better soon. Even though I don't have money, I'm thinking of calling lawyers to see what they might say. My Psychiatrist is totally on my side, so that will help bundles. She is putting me back on an old medicine that I think will help me. If I can ever work again, I want to have my own restaurant, The Jaspers. I told you that once but it's been awhile. I think about it a lot.
So, we're cool, so glad you stopped by. My cats are all sweet and healthy. The weather here has been very nice, probably still hot there?
Tiffany Jamb, LOL!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Are You Okay? Just Worried.
Time: 12:57:58
To: Zenith
Subject: Are You Okay? Just worried.
Hope things are fine with you. I'm doing pretty good. Saw my doctor today, one of them at least, hell. Haven't heard from you, sorry about the long letter. If anything happened to you, how would I know? There's got to be a discreet way to fix that. What if something happened to me? I will tell Anj to contact you in that event, or if I'm going to be away for awhile, I can let you know. I know! The four walls finally got to you and you are in a rubber suit, no? LOL. You mean the world to me.
To: Zenith
Subject: Are You Okay? Just worried.
Hope things are fine with you. I'm doing pretty good. Saw my doctor today, one of them at least, hell. Haven't heard from you, sorry about the long letter. If anything happened to you, how would I know? There's got to be a discreet way to fix that. What if something happened to me? I will tell Anj to contact you in that event, or if I'm going to be away for awhile, I can let you know. I know! The four walls finally got to you and you are in a rubber suit, no? LOL. You mean the world to me.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
RE: six, one, half-dozen or the other
Date Aug 01, 2010 - 12:04:29
From Zenith
Subject: RE: six, one, half-dozen or the other
for thee code, i didnt have to write it out, its your name
anyhow, wow thats a lot of crap. :O you started college when i was in first grade lol. and luckily i wont have to borrow. my college is paid for by my grandparents as long as i pretend to be an innocent little normal republican girl for a few more years. and once my college is done i can get away. Also an emo is techincally speaking a form of music, however society has applied sterotypes to it that are rather offensive. an emo person is simply one who listens to emo music and wears darker clothing than most people do. they are usually relatively normal otherwise. however... as you know people are ignorant. so the ignorant person that loves sterotypes (ugh those people need to just DIE) would tell you that an emo is a person who cuts their wrists for pleasure, is continuously depressed, whines about how hopeless their life, talks in a monotone saddened voice, and other things. its really sad that people judge based on these labels of society rather than taking time to really get to know a person. but anyhow, whatever. to fully understand the emo sterotype, look up the emo song on youtube, (which is actually funny, however wrong it is XD) its starts like "dear diary:mood-apathetic...."
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Sorry to hear about those walls. Get outside, smell the sunshine. Walk around the stupid house or something. At least you'll get some Vitamin D
Is it terribly hot? I used to have a button on my browsers with your region's weather report. Not sure what happened to it. I closed 3 toolbars. Using AOL and Windows Live toolbars now. I can get more buttons later.
Thanks for pointing me toward sumopaint (sumopaint.com?)
I keep busy studying for a killer GRE score, writing, reading, propping a swollen foot up from my fall of June 10. I have other projects too. Fun never stops.
Anj's laptop just got a nasty virus. Ouch. I'm going to try some old-fashioned piracy on the high seas with my Win XP disk, but after reading the disk labeling, I'm doubting that it might work. I offerred to pay at least a hundred dollars towards her repair/new op system, she hates Vista. I do too. She has a poor concept of money mgmt or budgets, doesn't like numbers...damn. I told her that if she wanted my help, and she has said she did, then she had to pay every bill she has in full this month. Then we can see where she's at. Damn, I'm too broke for this, but I owe her big time. She's a doll.
The dentist was great! She said I was easy to work on. I just said, "I'm a veteran."
She REBUILT my tooth! I got a special credit line, interest free, called Care Credit. I got a line for $500 and the repairs were around $350. Glad I could keep the tooth.
Life doesn't always suck, I just seem to be a lost relative of Job! haha.
2006-EVICTION (new bldg owners didn't like me) I had 12 days and $135 in my bank acct. One man who cared little if he did heavy labor. But he broke crap.
2007-assaulted a sociopathic butthead, went to JAIL, no meds for 3 days, multiple withdrawal syndromes all at once, horrid food, (and I'm not even picky). FEAR and loss. Lost 5 lbs in 5 days. (no guilty verdict).
2008 - abruptly lost my meds nurse, therapist, whole environment at Greater Lakes Mental Healthcare after 9 yrs, due to funding cuts. I was lost. Nobody sems to take Medicare. Found a nurse but she was abusive. I told her exactly where to go. I found a clinic that took anybody and they were happy to take Medicare. BUT only my doctor to prescribe, and he bluntly stated it was out of his field and licensing. I went through heavy withdrawal since one of my meds had street value. I finally got a Psychiatrist. I've sufferred.
2009 - Almost lost my $400/mo housing subsidy due to internal corruption and predjudice at Tacoma Housing Authority. Horribly anxious, depressed and dazed. I can't live without that and I did nothing wrong. I can't help if I seem fine, I can't take stress of work physically oh mentally, need too much sleep to work enough hours... I have learning difficulties. Yeah, I earned crazy honors and graduated college, but it was at a heavy price. (most of my 30's, last years of my real youth). Sleep, study...sleep... School career 1999-2006. Age 31 - 38.
2010 - may be facing $30,000 in student loans, a financial death sentence FOR LIFE. Bye-bye future. Applying for relief for total and permanent disability, but?
June 10, syncope, collapse while unconscious, broke leg, maybe something in my foot. Can't walk without crutches, then with problems. Ok, life sucks for me.
Every year I tell myself that it will be better than the last. Ya think?
Gotta go, hope you don't mind my whining, but I wanted to share all that crap with you. When you go to school, avoid borrowing, then borrow as little as you can! I hope that you can know me better through all this stuff and maybe my crap could teach you something about life in general. Mostly I just had to get it off my chest. I copied and pasted this letter to a Word doc. I never wrote stuff out like that before.
What are you still doing here? Get out of here already! Go outside briefly even if for no reason at all, get some sun or something. Walk to a store? Go see a friend?
Hey, just for educational purposes, what the hell is an "emo?" An outrageously and inappropriately emotional person? A raging lunatic? Clue me in?
I love you lots. Bye for now. - TIFJMB Hint: write the alphabet out and compare each letter I wrote with it...what letters (char's) is each particular coded letter closest to?
From Zenith
Subject: RE: six, one, half-dozen or the other
for thee code, i didnt have to write it out, its your name
anyhow, wow thats a lot of crap. :O you started college when i was in first grade lol. and luckily i wont have to borrow. my college is paid for by my grandparents as long as i pretend to be an innocent little normal republican girl for a few more years. and once my college is done i can get away. Also an emo is techincally speaking a form of music, however society has applied sterotypes to it that are rather offensive. an emo person is simply one who listens to emo music and wears darker clothing than most people do. they are usually relatively normal otherwise. however... as you know people are ignorant. so the ignorant person that loves sterotypes (ugh those people need to just DIE) would tell you that an emo is a person who cuts their wrists for pleasure, is continuously depressed, whines about how hopeless their life, talks in a monotone saddened voice, and other things. its really sad that people judge based on these labels of society rather than taking time to really get to know a person. but anyhow, whatever. to fully understand the emo sterotype, look up the emo song on youtube, (which is actually funny, however wrong it is XD) its starts like "dear diary:mood-apathetic...."
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Sorry to hear about those walls. Get outside, smell the sunshine. Walk around the stupid house or something. At least you'll get some Vitamin D
Is it terribly hot? I used to have a button on my browsers with your region's weather report. Not sure what happened to it. I closed 3 toolbars. Using AOL and Windows Live toolbars now. I can get more buttons later.
Thanks for pointing me toward sumopaint (sumopaint.com?)
I keep busy studying for a killer GRE score, writing, reading, propping a swollen foot up from my fall of June 10. I have other projects too. Fun never stops.
Anj's laptop just got a nasty virus. Ouch. I'm going to try some old-fashioned piracy on the high seas with my Win XP disk, but after reading the disk labeling, I'm doubting that it might work. I offerred to pay at least a hundred dollars towards her repair/new op system, she hates Vista. I do too. She has a poor concept of money mgmt or budgets, doesn't like numbers...damn. I told her that if she wanted my help, and she has said she did, then she had to pay every bill she has in full this month. Then we can see where she's at. Damn, I'm too broke for this, but I owe her big time. She's a doll.
The dentist was great! She said I was easy to work on. I just said, "I'm a veteran."
She REBUILT my tooth! I got a special credit line, interest free, called Care Credit. I got a line for $500 and the repairs were around $350. Glad I could keep the tooth.
Life doesn't always suck, I just seem to be a lost relative of Job! haha.
2006-EVICTION (new bldg owners didn't like me) I had 12 days and $135 in my bank acct. One man who cared little if he did heavy labor. But he broke crap.
2007-assaulted a sociopathic butthead, went to JAIL, no meds for 3 days, multiple withdrawal syndromes all at once, horrid food, (and I'm not even picky). FEAR and loss. Lost 5 lbs in 5 days. (no guilty verdict).
2008 - abruptly lost my meds nurse, therapist, whole environment at Greater Lakes Mental Healthcare after 9 yrs, due to funding cuts. I was lost. Nobody sems to take Medicare. Found a nurse but she was abusive. I told her exactly where to go. I found a clinic that took anybody and they were happy to take Medicare. BUT only my doctor to prescribe, and he bluntly stated it was out of his field and licensing. I went through heavy withdrawal since one of my meds had street value. I finally got a Psychiatrist. I've sufferred.
2009 - Almost lost my $400/mo housing subsidy due to internal corruption and predjudice at Tacoma Housing Authority. Horribly anxious, depressed and dazed. I can't live without that and I did nothing wrong. I can't help if I seem fine, I can't take stress of work physically oh mentally, need too much sleep to work enough hours... I have learning difficulties. Yeah, I earned crazy honors and graduated college, but it was at a heavy price. (most of my 30's, last years of my real youth). Sleep, study...sleep... School career 1999-2006. Age 31 - 38.
2010 - may be facing $30,000 in student loans, a financial death sentence FOR LIFE. Bye-bye future. Applying for relief for total and permanent disability, but?
June 10, syncope, collapse while unconscious, broke leg, maybe something in my foot. Can't walk without crutches, then with problems. Ok, life sucks for me.
Every year I tell myself that it will be better than the last. Ya think?
Gotta go, hope you don't mind my whining, but I wanted to share all that crap with you. When you go to school, avoid borrowing, then borrow as little as you can! I hope that you can know me better through all this stuff and maybe my crap could teach you something about life in general. Mostly I just had to get it off my chest. I copied and pasted this letter to a Word doc. I never wrote stuff out like that before.
What are you still doing here? Get out of here already! Go outside briefly even if for no reason at all, get some sun or something. Walk to a store? Go see a friend?
Hey, just for educational purposes, what the hell is an "emo?" An outrageously and inappropriately emotional person? A raging lunatic? Clue me in?
I love you lots. Bye for now. - TIFJMB Hint: write the alphabet out and compare each letter I wrote with it...what letters (char's) is each particular coded letter closest to?
RE: flying under the radar
Date Aug 04, 2010 - 10:27:10
From Zenith
Subject: RE: flying under the radar
Body: You want to know something hilarious? Im so androgynous at this point most people cant tell my gender (easily) if they dont know me. I made a thread called guess my gender. Half say girl, half say boy, and people are trying to back up their reasons... its quite funny. XD But one guy cracked me. Hes a trans guy, and he said he knew immediately i was too. WOAH. :O
I got like... 5 minutes of sunshine. I really dont like it. At all. You can tell from my skin tone lol. heres my thread http://www.subeta.net/forums/goto/13497654
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No load of crap today, thankfully! My old friend Dennis (the bisexual Chemical Engineer) called. Was glad to talk to him. He's had some crap too. I guess we all do, but some have less, like I hope a smart girl like you can. NO BORROWING - a word to the wise.
Between now and age 24 or so, If you have serious depression or sudden unexplained (probably dangerous) elation, seek out a Pscyhologist or some help. Luckily the Bipolar crap will pass you by. If not, GET MEDS.
So. What's your major? Glad to hear about your good little normal (?) republican tuition payments!! lol. ; )
Thanks for describing the emo and the stereotype.
I should have known you'd guess the name in my little code. We are like spies, you Zenith in subeta, me Subsonic - Operation Under the Radar (or something like that...) Yeah.
Well, I finally started my autobiography. Not much to it yet, but it's all online where a silly PC virus can't just knock it all off my HD. I'm going to make Word files, print hardcopies, make CD's just to keep it from vanishing - people are clueless as to how fragile electronic computer data really is. Bugs. Viruses. Power surges or blackouts, hackers, natural disasters, even human predators if you think about it. How helpful would it be to an invading force to create and electromagnetic pulse and wipe our computers out? Bomb them? Hack them? Just target every bank's computer systems and likely backups... Extreme, but scary. Little glitches have sent so much of my work right down the toilet, or to data heaven. Even online glitches. Blogger has me blocked out of my blogs that you read. There's really no one to contact either. It's just the users fending for themselves. I'm no tech. I'll work on it some more when I decide to. Word Count 2007 is locked down to me. D.a.m.n.!!
By the way, the guy I went after was a sociopathic "a$$ hole," not a "butthead!" lol.
SO, did you finally get some sunshine? It's been warm here, but not hot. I miss hot weather a little, but then I realize I miss it VERY little. *insert more smilies here* LOL
Miss seeing your face. A lot. - TIFJMB
From Zenith
Subject: RE: flying under the radar
Body: You want to know something hilarious? Im so androgynous at this point most people cant tell my gender (easily) if they dont know me. I made a thread called guess my gender. Half say girl, half say boy, and people are trying to back up their reasons... its quite funny. XD But one guy cracked me. Hes a trans guy, and he said he knew immediately i was too. WOAH. :O
I got like... 5 minutes of sunshine. I really dont like it. At all. You can tell from my skin tone lol. heres my thread http://www.subeta.net/forums/goto/13497654
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No load of crap today, thankfully! My old friend Dennis (the bisexual Chemical Engineer) called. Was glad to talk to him. He's had some crap too. I guess we all do, but some have less, like I hope a smart girl like you can. NO BORROWING - a word to the wise.
Between now and age 24 or so, If you have serious depression or sudden unexplained (probably dangerous) elation, seek out a Pscyhologist or some help. Luckily the Bipolar crap will pass you by. If not, GET MEDS.
So. What's your major? Glad to hear about your good little normal (?) republican tuition payments!! lol. ; )
Thanks for describing the emo and the stereotype.
I should have known you'd guess the name in my little code. We are like spies, you Zenith in subeta, me Subsonic - Operation Under the Radar (or something like that...) Yeah.
Well, I finally started my autobiography. Not much to it yet, but it's all online where a silly PC virus can't just knock it all off my HD. I'm going to make Word files, print hardcopies, make CD's just to keep it from vanishing - people are clueless as to how fragile electronic computer data really is. Bugs. Viruses. Power surges or blackouts, hackers, natural disasters, even human predators if you think about it. How helpful would it be to an invading force to create and electromagnetic pulse and wipe our computers out? Bomb them? Hack them? Just target every bank's computer systems and likely backups... Extreme, but scary. Little glitches have sent so much of my work right down the toilet, or to data heaven. Even online glitches. Blogger has me blocked out of my blogs that you read. There's really no one to contact either. It's just the users fending for themselves. I'm no tech. I'll work on it some more when I decide to. Word Count 2007 is locked down to me. D.a.m.n.!!
By the way, the guy I went after was a sociopathic "a$$ hole," not a "butthead!" lol.
SO, did you finally get some sunshine? It's been warm here, but not hot. I miss hot weather a little, but then I realize I miss it VERY little. *insert more smilies here* LOL
Miss seeing your face. A lot. - TIFJMB
RE: Nitelight/Twitlight review
Date Aug 05, 2010 - 10:25:19
From Zenith
Subject: RE: Nitelight/Twitlight review
hmm. i dont believe there is an official twitlight. you should make it Well im glad you read it before i did so i didnt waste me time XD
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Hey - just read NIGHTLIGHT.
Overly silly, ridicule hyper-focused on Bella's self-absorbed, clumsy, grandiose, senile character. completely aimless, some jokes funny, most repetitive crappola. Not worth reading. (Harvard Lampoon). Under-critical of author's true flaws for the most part. I expected smarter jokes. Using a literary reference or mathematical jargon in a joke does not impress me. It's pedantic while the joke itself sucks. Don't waste your money. It was $10 for me with shipping.
Seriously, man, is there really a Twitlight?" Nitelight was too long and hyperfocused, not long enough also, since it never had any plot at all, and S Meyers actually did have interesting plot, eventually. Her last book, Breaking Dawn, was by far the best written. She used the word synchronicity wrong! It was hilarious. "The Volturi began moving forward in synchronicity! I believe the word is related to fate, connectedness, includes serendipity, everything occurs for a reason, etc
From Zenith
Subject: RE: Nitelight/Twitlight review
hmm. i dont believe there is an official twitlight. you should make it Well im glad you read it before i did so i didnt waste me time XD
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Hey - just read NIGHTLIGHT.
Overly silly, ridicule hyper-focused on Bella's self-absorbed, clumsy, grandiose, senile character. completely aimless, some jokes funny, most repetitive crappola. Not worth reading. (Harvard Lampoon). Under-critical of author's true flaws for the most part. I expected smarter jokes. Using a literary reference or mathematical jargon in a joke does not impress me. It's pedantic while the joke itself sucks. Don't waste your money. It was $10 for me with shipping.
Seriously, man, is there really a Twitlight?" Nitelight was too long and hyperfocused, not long enough also, since it never had any plot at all, and S Meyers actually did have interesting plot, eventually. Her last book, Breaking Dawn, was by far the best written. She used the word synchronicity wrong! It was hilarious. "The Volturi began moving forward in synchronicity! I believe the word is related to fate, connectedness, includes serendipity, everything occurs for a reason, etc
RE: good causes
Date Aug 05, 2010 - 10:30:14
From Zenith
Subject: RE: good causes
it sounds awful, but im kinda a selfish person and i really dont give a crap unless it affects me XD So if it represents myself, (like a trans cause or atheist cause) then id totally be a member. otherwise, i dont bother. i know its horrible. Im just really apathetic sometimes.
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What are your favorite causes? I like many, sometimes send a few bucks; AARP, Sierra Club, Democratic National Party, Southern Poverty Law Center, Amnesty, American Civil Liberties Union or ACLU. That about covers civil rights, anti-racism, the environment, prison victims abroad, and liberalism in general.
I carry several membership cards. I just like the address labels and the pretty stickers!!! HA! roflmoa - good mood today
Your mum, TIFJMB (now there's a name that rolls off your tongue! XDD)
From Zenith
Subject: RE: good causes
it sounds awful, but im kinda a selfish person and i really dont give a crap unless it affects me XD So if it represents myself, (like a trans cause or atheist cause) then id totally be a member. otherwise, i dont bother. i know its horrible. Im just really apathetic sometimes.
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What are your favorite causes? I like many, sometimes send a few bucks; AARP, Sierra Club, Democratic National Party, Southern Poverty Law Center, Amnesty, American Civil Liberties Union or ACLU. That about covers civil rights, anti-racism, the environment, prison victims abroad, and liberalism in general.
I carry several membership cards. I just like the address labels and the pretty stickers!!! HA! roflmoa - good mood today
Your mum, TIFJMB (now there's a name that rolls off your tongue! XDD)
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